Liar.

March 7th, 2010

credits (PaperTissue)

2 days and counting, everyone’s been lying. All the encouraging and motivating words seemed meaningless. I should have seen it coming. No. I’ve already seen it coming except that I didn’t prepare myself to face the consequences. I expected what I should have, but I left out the most important part of facing the music.

Right now, I’m really in the middle of nowhere. This feeling sucks. People choosing you instead of you choosing them. How long have I been in such situations? Over and over again, its a never ending cycle. Repeatedly, I land myself in such detested situations.

It’s not their fault, not anyone’s but mine. The past couple of days, its been the first time I’m so thankful of my job. It’s the only thing that can make me forget of my self-caused miserable future. I can run, but I can’t hide. It’s all gona come. Right in my face.

Maybe I’ll be able to look at it right in the eye soon, but before that just let me be part of the crowd ..

and lie

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March 6th, 2010

The world is huge while I’m so small. I need some time for myself..

March 6th, 2010

Its funny when you realise that the people who cares about you when you’re down are those that you don’t even pay much attention to usually. I guess I understand what it means when you gain and lose. Some things aren’t for granted, I’ll repay them next time.

Yet some… just don’t understand and I’m tired of repeating.

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March 6th, 2010

I need help and I can’t afford to do anything for others right now.

They just don’t understand. One by one…

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Crap

March 5th, 2010

My results sucks.

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