Been wondering for so long now . Been thinking about it so much since my world started to turn upside down . And when you’re down and out, when you need someone to give a helping hand, would there be someone out there for you ? Someone whom you can trust to be there when you’re falling ? Someone that will hold on to you no matter what befalls ? Someone that would never abandon you ?

Friends . They can’t be defined for a reason, just like love . Matters of the heart . I hate superficial friends . Those that say “hi” and “bye” then they’re gone . Even those that always talk to you but somehow just seem so distant and would only talk to you if you take the initiative to . Then you start to question yourself, why are they like this ? Don’t I mean anything to them ? Won’t they want to have the urge to talk to me too ? Or even be concerned about me ? Why is it always me ? Then you start to get tired of everything . But you know that you don’t want it to end like this, so you put in a little more effort and tried . But somehow they don’t seem like they are responding to your pleas . So eventually you gave up . 

Is this what everyone has been facing ? Or should I include myself too ? I’ve been in this phase for so long wondering and pondering over it . Why and why ? Asking so much questions and all . Then perhaps when you put yourselves in their shoes, you would understand . 

Everyone has a life on their own and they too have their own troubles they can’t solve . They need people there too . To help them, to help them up when they’ve fallen down . You know this, because you have a life of your own too . You can’t expect them to be there forever, always on the lookout for you . Always there thinking if you are fine and all . They have their own lives to lead . They have already sacrificed a lot if you think about it . They’ve helped you in the past . The sole reason why they would even waste their time and effort on you is because they care . 

And it isn’t fair to label them as “superficial” just because they ain’t there for a few times . Isn’t that too selfish ? And not everyone has the skill that Edward Cullen has which is to read minds . Friends can’t read minds . They help you if you seek them for help . They try their best to do something . Yet, friends are human beings . Don’t expect them to change your life . They do all they can . They would try their best . And you at the other side, have to understand that they have helped . No matter what’s the result, be thankful that they’ve tried . To you it may seem that they don’t really care . Who knows ? Maybe they have already put in their utmost effort .

And question yourself when you label them with words that are so hurting . Then reflect and remember those times when they’ve helped you and ask yourself . Have you ever helped them ? If you did, have they been appreciative of it ? I’m sure they have . Humans are different for a reason . No one is the same .

Life is hard, but with friends around it’s much easier . Learn to appreciate what others have done and not what others have not . Understand what others are feeling and not only yours . Look at the big picture, don’t only look at the result . Because the truth is, friends are always there when you yourself, approach them for help (: