Save you

Really exhausted today . Been up earlier than the usual fridays because there was a principal talk . Consciousness . That’s what her talk was about today . And I couldn’t say that it made no sense because it did . And most of the time, it was true . Quite sad to hear actually, just how spot on she was . And the one sentence that really impacted me was ” if everyone can do it, why can’t you ? ” That is so true . I’m really glad that I didn’t backed out of SYF because I couldn’t really cope with schoolwork . Perhaps if I think now, actually it is all due to my time management . If others could multi-task so much and I couldn’t, does it mean I’m weaker ?

I firmly believe that “I’m different from the others” is just an excuse . Everyone is the same . They might have a headstart but I’m sure with the same effort put in, we can do as much . When we get our exam scripts back, why do we always tell our parents ” Aiya . It’s okay one lah . I not the worst yet . My class got  .. ” Yet, ponder about it . Why do we always compare ourselves with the worst ? Is it okay to just ensure that we aren’t the last ? Or should we aim for the first like the cream of the crop are ? The only reason why they are there is because they aim higher and achieve higher . If from the start, you’ve deemed yourself as weak, you’ve already lost half the battle .

I’ve learnt this in the past few months . Be confident in yourself because you might never know . Even the sotong could be right once . Believe in whatever you do . And one day, you might just prove yourself to be different . That day, you would accept yourself .

Okay . I’ve digressed far too much . After the talk, when for PC/CT period . Then went for maths reflection . Couldn’t do anything at all . I seriously am too poor in maths . I’ve got to start revising ! If not, I would be lost forever ! ><” Vectors is totally “gone case” already. And I still owe my teacher the 102 questions . AHHH ! I need more time !

Physics lecture . Forgot to bring my notes but I guess I could do the questions . I wonder how I’ve fared in the lecture test . I really hope that I’ve at least scrapped through ! ><” That’s a low aim for others, but a high one for me . I shall then increase it as time passes .

Computing . Did practical . Thanks YeowKeng and Melvin for helping . Melvin is seriously funny . His bag is so huge, and there’s this HUGE hole . And he proudly showed it off to me saying that it’s much easier to get stuff that way >.>” He has gone insane . LOL . Oh . And he was forcing me to ask him to teach me physics x.x Because I didn’t know how to do the tutorial, then I wanted to ask him . But it’s really a minor question and I don’t even know it . So I thought it would only bother him . So I sad never mind . Then he started to force me . He kept repeating ” ENGHWEE . ASK ME . ASK ME . WHAT YOU WANA ASK ? ” I was like nothing nothing ><” Then in the end he gave up and I gave in . LOL . So he did help me a lot . Oh and Muthu too . Thanks ! D

Had break after that . Ate in the sorching heat . Went to the library with WenJia . Jolene came along after that . I read this magazine that says that your face tells your personality . Oh and guys that are dominant and aggressive have round faces . Boys and men who have childish faces tend to be better in academics but they are difficult to get along with . Something like that . Can’t remember all the details P Then Shannon came along with the pile of newspaper article books . Shocked WenJia . Quite a hilarious scene . WenJia was seriously TOO ENGROSSED in watching DBSK videos in my itouch instead of studying maths . Oh well . It’s part of my fault also . LOL .

Went for lessons after that . Physics tutorial in fact . HAIL TO THE TIGER SHARK ! Wanted to choose porcupine fish because it was so cute . But in the end, WeiQin and me decided to place our votes on the king of the ocean ! We were leading actually ! Then CheeWee ruined it all x.x He was talking away and Mr Phang caught him . He couldn’t answer the question so our marks gt deducted . Oh well never mind . GOGO TIGER SHARK ! D 

Then slacked in guitar room . Heard Jolene, Shannon and Melvin played together their SYF piece . LOL . Oh well . What a coincidence that they are all in different sections . It’s quite a nice song (: The first part was really good . I think there were times when each section play the melody . When they harmonize, it was really nice :X LOL . But Jolene is trying her best already . JIAYOUS BAOBEI ! D

Went to eat in canteen with Shannon . Saw WenJia . Went for dance . Learnt a new routine . Waited for LingLan till her cca end . They were really random x.x Suddenly wanted to eat IceKachang so we went to the foodcourt . I was broke so LingLan treated me THANKS ~! Hehe . We were chatting about our secondary school past ! Laughed a lot . Remembered the times when YuanXi and WenJia would always argue and fight . There were so many people scolding each other . Also talked about the times when I hated everyone and scolded everyone in my blog . It’s so funny seriously . Go my old blog and check it out . It’s the first few posts I think . LOL . It’s seriously funny . And my english then was HORRIBLE ! LingLan agreed and said that it was the trend to say ” sux ” and all . 

Childish people ! :X And last time everyone hated WenJia . I couldn’t really remember the reason why . LingLan said it was just because we just don’t like her . LOL . Last time during Sec 1 I didn’t like anyone x.x I hated everyone and all . I wonder why I was so childish . And it’s really weird . I kept scolding them and even labelled them as “gossip club” but the point was they still continued to hang out with me . I wonder why x.x LingLan herself have no idea too . Everyone should really read my posts . I mean the old blog . The first few ones . It’s so funny when you think about the past . When we were so happy and carefree . We could argue everyday , have fun . Talked about teachers and students . Now JC life is killing us all with the lack of time to even do our homework less alone chat and have fun !

Continued to laugh and chat about the past . Saw Ms Huang . Then came Shannon . Quite shocking . After that saw secondary school friends . Left northpoint at around 8 plus . OH AND SUBWAY IS GONA BE IN NORTHPOINT SOON BESIDE HARVY NORMAN ! D YAY ~ Don’t need to go all the way to Sembawang Shopping Centre anymore ! D

Reached home quite late . Ate and bathed . Now I’m comfortably sitting on my bedroom chair and turning in for the night soon (:

Before I end off this post, a song to share as usual ! xD

Simple Plan – Save you

Take a breath 
I pull myself together 
Just another step until I reach the door 
You’ll never know the way it 
tears me up inside to see you 
I wish that I could tell you something 
and take it all away 

Sometimes I wish I could save you 
And there’s so many things 
that I want you to know 
I won’t give up till it’s over 
If it takes you forever I want you to know 

When I hear your voice 
It’s drowning into whispers 
You’re just skin and bones 
There’s nothing left to take 
No matter what I do I 
can’t make you feel better 
If only I could find the answer 
To help me understand 

Sometimes I wish I could save you 
And there’s so many things 
that I want you to know 
I wont give up till it’s over 
If it takes you forever I want you to know 

That if you fall, stumble down 
I’ll pick you up off the ground 
If you lose faith in you 
I’ll give you strength to pull through 
Tell me you won’t give up cause 
I’ll be waiting if you fall 
Oh you know I’ll be there for you 

(Ahahaha) 
If only I could find the answer 
To take it all away 

Sometimes I wish I could save you 
And there’s so many things 
that I want you to know 
I wont give up till it’s over 
If it takes you forever I want you to know (Oooh) 
I wish I could save you 
I want you to know (Ohohh) 
I wish I could save you (ohh)

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