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BrainDEAD. Really exhausted. Been trying to figure out the questions in AC tutorial and it’s not working . Seems like I’m really not a night person, or maybe I was in the past. Now, night means sleep for me. And my eyes are closing . Darn . I need more energy and somehow my body that’s supposed to have LOTS of energy is not supplying me with it. So is this energy inefficiency ? x.x

There’s just so much that I would wonder about,

about the actions of both you and me.

And sometimes I would laugh at myself,

for being so silly because it’s so idiotic.

 

There’s no reason for all of this,

no point in all of these useless thinking.

and most of the time I would just say,

“does it even matter at all ?”

 

There’s just too much I’ll question,

their comments are something I can’t ignore.

Even if I knew the answer,

I would still hope for something better.

I know that even if I try to give up, I can’t.

Even if I’ll put in all my effort, it just comes back to me.

I need an answer, to help me overcome all of this.

Was wondering over dinner, thinking about life right now and why I’m in such a ditch. And slowly I digressed away from the topic and started thinking real hard about situations in life that are just so unfair. It’s kind of stupid actually but it’s really weird. So if you’ve read the title of my post, you would have understood what I’m rambling about. 

1. It’s a rainy day with strong winds, you whipped out your umbrella and it goes “whoosh~”

This is actually quite normal in a place like Singapore. I mean though it’s described as sunny all year round, we also have rainy days. And when it happens, this would be the last situation that girls would ever want to be in. 

Feel familiar with this ? Yeah . It would really suck when you’re walking in the streets and you’re umbrella just have to flip to the otherside. And the worst thing is that passerbys are staring at you while some are giggling and some are just totally staring at you. At the point of time, you would just wish you could dig a hole and hide yourself. Despite this being a normal scene, it seems that this would never happen to pretty girls.

2. Your in the lecture theatre and you need to get your notes, you bend down and it goes “eeeek”

This is really common for students. I’ve been in these kind of situations before and it sucks. Then I would always question myself like ” Hey. There are SO many seats here and somehow, I’m just so LUCKY to get it.” And for the entire lecture, every time you bend down to get something from your bag, the chair just gives out that same “eeek” sound like it’s moaning because of your weight. People around you would kind of stare or maybe some would even laugh at you. While some get irritated but the point is “I also don’t want this happen to me”. In the end, for the whole lecture, you can’t focus and you can’t even fidget or move about because it’s really embarassing.

3. You were walking down a street and suddenly you hear whisperings and some giggles around you. You squint your ears and tries to listen to what they are saying and you hear “Look. It’s unzipped!”

This is really bad. It haven’t happened to me before but it did happen to the friends around me. But I can feel the awkward atmosphere and the thing is you’ve been walking around for god-knows-how-many-hours and who knows maybe your crush have even seen you and laughed at you. You would just seem like a total dork in front of him. And there goes the love of your life and the governments kept pressuring us to marry early and have kids. I mean it’s insane. Just a little carelessness, your repuation is gone ! It’s scary to be in such kind of situations and the worst thing that can add on is that your friends don’t tell you about it!

4. It has been 4 hours already and you’re really hungry. You really want to grab a bite and suddenly a growl from your stomach announced it to everyone around you too.

This one. I really have NEVER heard of pretty girls being in this situation. I mean don’t they get hungry too? The bad thing is that people around you would get the impression that you’re a glutton or something. Then they start whispering behind your backs. It’s creepy! Oh. And the other thing that I feel really unfair about ! Imagine these 2 scenarios. 1) A thin girl eating ice-cream and 2) A fat girl eating ice-cream. For the first girl, I’m sure everyone don’t have much to say but for the second girl, everyone would start commenting about how she should control her diet and all. Isn’t it unfair? Can’t they get to enjoy the food they like once in a while? It’s unfair !

5. You’ve just finished lunch and you see the guy you like. Nervous, you still tried to strike up a topic with him but he gives you the “irk” look and tried to end of conversation.

Wonder why? Not difficult to guess. You have something stucked in between your teeth ! ><” And ever wondered why these kind of situations never happens to a pretty girl? Somehow they always have the most perfect image, with those straight white teeth of theirs and always flashing their beautiful smiles 24/7. Not only this but also after a tiring session of physical training, your hair is totally messed up with the ends pointing at different directions. The only thing you want to do at that point is to quickly comb it up but then you turn around and realise that pretty friend of yours still have a perfect hairdo ! Even if it’s not neat, she still looks pretty with that messy hair and maybe even a little tinge of sexiness. That moment, you wish that you could be her too. 

Well . The list continues on but those are just the usual situations that I’ve observed or experienced myself. Sometimes, life just ain’t fair isn’t weird? But why don’t those stuff happen to them ? Weird ..