I promised I won’t rant but I couldn’t keep to it. Yes I did, I ranted to these four walls of mine. I typed it out but nope, I didn’t want to post it out. I’ve reflected yesterday night, went offline and listened to what my inner self wants. Away from all these noises and distractions. Tried so hard to sort out my thoughts, understand what was wrong and what I had to do. I’ve figured it out I think. The only obstacle that faces me is determination that is the greatest of them all. 

I have to say, studies are a huge part of my life. Something happened a couple of days ago and it made me realize what a liar I was. Always pretending like I don’t care, in fact I do. It sucks totally. But I don’t want to add troubles to my friends around, try to console me even though both of us know that they are useless words. So yeah, I kept it all in. 

I was thinking real hard, friends. I couldn’t understand anymore. It seems that in a junior college, that relationship is even harder to maintain. My secondary school friends are still those who stood by me. I don’t get it at all. Aren’t they all supposed to be the same ? What’s the difference. And when people say that JC life is the most enjoyable of all. I guess it was wrong huh ? I won’t wish that my secondary school days are back because I know they never will.

Instead, at least I got to appreciate what kind of friends I have especially those who stood by . Thanks .