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Archive for June, 2009
Overwhelmed .. by assignments !
Jun 29th
I feel really down right now. For the past hour, I’ve been receiving texts on assignments we’re supposed to hand in. And they are just piling up higher and higher. Gosh. I guess I should really work harder and time to stop watching dramas. I think I’ll stop watching them at all. Shall watch after my A-levels. By then, I should have quite a lot of Mr Brain episodes to catch up. And I’ll stop reading Bleach and Full Metal Alchemist every week.
Instead, it’s time to stop chucking the newspapers aside. No wonder my general paper grades ain’t improving. Talking about that, it was an horrible experience today to be unprepared. Normally I would have at least browsed through something so I won’t feel so anxious during exams and also able to at least get some facts to write in the essay. Today’s time practice was a total surprise attack so I won’t be surprsied if I fared badly. My examples were weird. To add on, Jeannette and I did the same question. Her planning was so detailed and the point was she had so much to write. I had no idea what to write at all. Sigh.
Maths was a torture. I sat through the entire lecture with a plain question mark. I had absolutely no idea what the teacher was saying at all.
Oh well, shall stop ranting and start doing my work.
can you hear me now ?
Holidays are almost OVER .
Jun 26th
I think this would be a short post that would summarize everything I’ve done for the past few days ! Little achievements I guess :X So the post gona be real short ~ Heh. Unless I find something to type suddenly.
For the homework part, I’ve finished doing my Economics and General paper assignment. For maths, I’m struggling away. Computing, I’m halfway through. I guess I shall quickly finish that . Physics, I’m trying to run away from it. I haven’t touch Physics for god knows how long and I really don’t wish to even get a glimpse of it at all ><”
And for the leisure part ? LOL . Should I even be typing this ? :X I’ve finished reading Full Metal Alchemist manga to the latest chapter and can’t wait for the next one . I’ll have to wait till July I guess ): Pretty sad huh. It seems like the anime is really different from the manga though there were attempts to link the story up in the anime. But still, as usual I like mangas better than animes. Heh.
Anyways, I was checking up on Zhang Yun Jing lately. She’s really so cool ! More guyish than a guy 
And her character is so cute ! Love her singing . And now, I’m really wishing that the third bleach movie would come out soon. Oh, and I’ve NOT watched Transformers yet. Can you believe that? I’m sure many people have caught the film in theatres already. Everyone going hoo-haa over Megan Fox but well, I think the plot is great in the first movie so I’m sure the second one won’t be a letdown. But as I’m a slowpoke as usual. Waiting for someone to ask me to watch LOL . I think it’ll be the same as the first movie instead. In the end, the movie stopped showing in cinemas and I still haven’t watch the show yet. Pathetic. But I got to catch it online. A pity I didn’t get to watch it in cinemas ><” Oh well, worse come to worst, I’ll watch alone (:
Been addicted to Amber’s “Ni Zai Bu Zai” a few hours ago. Been playing it on repeat for like 3 to 4 hours already. I wonder what’s the playcount. LOL . And I just went to check up the lyrics only. Yeah, I’m SLOW. But still yeah, at least I did right ? Just thought that the lyrics are really good. That’s one of the reasons I like Amber’s songs. Not like she wrote them herself ><” But somehow all her songs’ lyrics have this depth in them just like the first album. For this song, I love the part where it goes:
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and also this part:
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Isn’t it really true ? I guess thats the reason why songs can be so popular because it can be related to our own life, not only the singers’ lives.
Changing the subject, I’ve realised that there are many pages views as compared to unique visitors lately. I wonder why x.x Coming back more than once a day ? What’s the reason huh.
Oh YEAH ! I just remembered something real funny that YuanXi and I were chatting about that time when he came over to my house. We were recollecting our secondary school past and how fun it was. Then there was this time when our form teacher was really mean ! She was trying to persuade Joyce to drop Physics. Oh wait. Or was it Bio ? I can’t really remember but Joyce retorted saying that it’s her best science subject. So our form teacher continue to probe further asking how’s her results on that. Then I remember her saying a failed grade or just pass grade. Can’t really recall but yeah. It was pretty hilarious. The class was laughing like crazy including the form teacher -.-
Oh, and secondary 4 was a nightmare for me. Wana know why? I was sitting in the middle and the left side of me is the top in the level Jonathan and the other side was my best friend. But the thing was that she’s really good in studies too. So everytime when we get back our papers, they would not want to ask each other directly how much each other got. So they would use me as a “spy”. And what’s the bad thing ? THEIR RESULTS ARE FREAKING HIGH. How could I not feel demoralized. Imagine you yourself getting 50 plus and you’re like “thank god I passed”. Then beside your friend beside says ” Hey. Help me ask blah blah what’s his or her marks. ” Then the friend replies an astonshing HIGH result that is almost double of yours -.- God. I wish I could die.
Luckily, I didn’t land in the same predicament in Junior College. If not, I think I would have evolved into an emo kid already. It was a trauma. You wouldn’t understand how I feel unless you were me ! x.x
Okay, time to end this post and read the stack of newspapers I’ve been neglecting for like 3 days ? -.- Darn. What a huge pile *starts reading*
Reflections(Part I)
Jun 24th
Should I even type this out ? I was thinking really hard because I guess it’ll leave a different impression on others of me. But it’s true and this is my blog .. So typing it out seems really logical and I don’t have anyone to talk to about. Even if I talk to others about this I bet they are just going to give that “So you’re this kind of person” kind of attitude.
To say the truth, I’ve been wondering lately why everyone is asking help from me. Seriously, there are so many people out there and why me ? They always give the reason that it’s because “I’m nice” . But that reason, I’m afraid, ain’t true. Yeah. Because to tell you a real fact, everytime someone asks me to help them do something, I seriously just wana say a big fat no straight in their faces. However I would always remind myself that I should be helpful and all so instead I would just agree and help them do it.
I really admire those people who can help others from the heart because precisely, I don’t have that intentions. Because me helping you ain’t my real intentions. But, can I say it this way ? It doesn’t seem so either. I’m forcing myself to do it because I want to be nice. And then helping you become my real intention. Okay, this is getting confusing.
But I’m really confused. I wonder if I’m the other one feeling this way. And I totally hate it when people ask me for help and give me the shitass attitude like I owe them the favor or something. Can’t they just be nicer ? I’m not oblidged to do anything for you, for your information. In case you haven’t realised, I actually really hate helping. AHH. Yeah, that’s right.
In the past, never would I help anyone. I think secondary school friends would know that I ain’t nice at all. At least that’s in my opinion. I think it’s a bother and yeah, won’t make any effort to not admit it. What’s the point of covering it all and acting so nice in front of others. GAH. But when I went into JC, I thought I should be nicer to everyone else around me. To actually reflect, I’m really lucky. My friends stayed by me despite my crappy characters. Sometimes I wonder.
Well, this is the real me. So unhelpful, so unkind, not wanting to do anything for others. Just wana stay alone and do my own stuff. So, what’s right or what’s wrong. Nono, the question should be .. What’s wrong ?
Happy Birthday Mummy ! (:
Jun 24th
Monday was my Mother’s birthday. Didn’t give her anything though. Was supposed to give her a treat but yesterday when we went out for dinner, my uncle paid for our meal instead. So in the end, there was no birthday present ><” Well, except for the cake that we bought I guess .
Stay healthy mummy ! Love ya lots (:
