One word. Dilemma.

Normally, the word would be exhausted, but today, it’s really kinda different I guess. The past weeks, I’ve only been concerned about my failing grades. Even subjects that I thought that I would be fine in didn’t turn out the way I expected. Guess I can only blame everything on how undisciplined I am.

Today morning, I printed out the Preliminary Examination’s Schedule. Gosh. When I had a look at it, it wasn’t really tight together however the tight knot in my stomach didn’t ease at all. I’m really anxious but I just couldn’t pull myself together to study. Wonder how long this procrastination would continue. I doubt counselling can help any longer. I need some form of motivation. Need it really badly now.

Anyways, I just realized that I haven’t blogged for a couple of days already so I should just update on what happened.  Yesterday was quite a short day despite the sudden addition of computing lesson by Mrs Liang. It was actually quite hilarious because some of my classmates were already out of school and others were preparing to do some activites. Then suddenly we’re called back to have lessons. CheeWee and MingSheng were already out of school. They lied that they hailed for a cab already and all. Tried to fabricate some storyline and all. Mrs Liang on the other hand was quite fustrated that the security guard let them out because it wasn’t 1.30pm yet. Normally, it has to be 1.3opm before the gates are “open” for students to leave.

Next was Guo Bin who was already dressed up and ready to go for a run. He came in with his jersey on and all. Oh well, I guess people really have to be flexible. I mean, at least he came. LOL. Oh, and when I entered the lab, Jennifer was showing off her beautiful handwriting to me.

Talking about handwriting, the guys in the class just have to be so nice to remind how untidy my handwriting is. I mean come on, time was tight and all. How neat could I have written? I tried my best to already. And I guess my temper is really getting worse. I just ranted that they could stop reading if they don’t want to. Stop grumbling. The worst kind of comments are those that come from people with illegible handwritings. I mean if your handwriting is nice and you complain about mine, fine. I can’t do anything. But if yours suck, and you’ll complaining about mine. Please, get a life.

Let’s change topic. Today my maid, I mean ex-maid came back to visit us with DESSERT! Seriously, it was really nice! She shared with us what happened at her sister’s wedding and many other funny stories. She was telling us how her mother wanted her to get married and all. And it wasn’t only her mother, everyone around her too. Then she came up with lots of excuses to make them keep quiet. The story about her mother was really funny.

She said that when she went back for the wedding, she hanged out with her friends and took a lot of photos. When her mother browsed through the photos, she commented that one of them was really handsome. “He’s handsome isn’t he?” My maid was agreeing and all. So her mother continued asking “So do you text each other?”. She replied saying that they do text and call each other. Her mother then started to try and persuade her to get married with him. She started to give all kinds of reasons why they weren’t meant for each other. Firstly, he’s only 26. They are 10 years old apart. But her mum retorted that age is not a problem. She gave the last blow ” He’s a GAY” . That totally, stopped her mum from saying anything further. LOL.

Anyways, this was what she baked. Pavlova (:

It’s really good and not filling at all. The crust is made of egg white and sugar only. The topping is whipped cream, strawberries and blueberries. A perfect dessert for a person with a sweet tooth like me ! (:

Lastly, a photo taken together ! :D