I’m going insane soon. I’ve already made up my mind to study since I woke up today. Even wrote out my agenda. However, it’s killing me. I was flipping the computing book that I’ve borrowed from library yesterday, and I just realised how messy everything was. I mean, they’ve classified everything so nicely but because in school, we learn each topic from different teachers. Hence now it’s really mixed up. My brain is all tangled up and I couldn’t identify which topics are by which teachers. More often than not, it’s more than one teacher. My notes are all over the place, not literally. They are all fine, nicely filed in my computing file but the chapters just seem so weird.
I really don’t feel like studying at all. I have this urge that’s telling me to study but it’s really difficult when you know that there’s so many topics that you haven’t touch and time is running out. Also, it’s not like I don’t know if I don’t get started, I would never progress on. Darn. I wonder what kind of goals I should set for myself.
Besides, I’ve just read the comments written by the teachers yesterday. Not encouraging at all huh. It’s been like this since young I guess. But sometimes, you just get fed up over what teachers want. The worse thing is when they judge you like they know you well. It’s freaking idiotic when you know that they don’t know you and you should just forget about whatever they say but you can’t. You just can’t ignore it completely. Instead, you think about it more. Darn.
I’ll have to do something if not it’ll be too late. All too late.
