I’m seriously suffering withdrawal symptoms and it’s a hell of an addiction to kick. I’ve been trying so hard to get away from the computer. I’ve even hid my laptop in the drawer so it won’t appear within my sight. However, I still experience that anxiety of … GETTING THE LATEST UPDATES OF BIGBANG! I’m insane. Every time I feel like switching on my laptop, I would tell myself that Preliminary Exams are just round the corner. And of course, I would not want to give up now. But determination can be so weak sometimes and ta-dah, I’ve lost to temptation. Gosh.
Studying really takes a huge sum of determination. I’m still trying to find back that spirit I had during O level period. I can’t believe how studious I was, even treating studying as a hobby. Now, I’m trying to get away from it. I keep thinking about taking a break when I haven’t really done much. It FEELS like a lot but it’s not that way. Now, it’s taking a toll on me and I wish that I could just somehow kick this addiction.
Anyways, yesterday’s achievement was too great and today’s seem so minuscule. I think there’s an obvious reason why I’m having difficult focusing in my work today. Guess what? To feed my addiction, I slept at 3am and I woke up at 9am. The feeling I got when I opened my eyes in the morning was the feeling of a hangover(not that I’ve experienced it before but I’m guessing it). My head hurts and I needed more sleep. I could feel both my head and body exhausted. Yet, I reminded myself that it was me who wanted to sacrifice sleep time. So hell yeah, I couldn’t do anything. Crawled out of the bed with one of my eyes shut.
Luckily, breakfast was welcoming. Mantou(White steambun). Grabbed two of them and started munching on it while I read my papers. In the process, I started to get worried for my General Paper examination and kept thinking of ways to entrench those facts and figures in my head. No doubt, it was difficult and the only way that works? Read it a thousand times and test yourself. Kidding. I meant at least 10 times? Now I kind of remember some stuff. Anyways, I’m trying really hard to remember names of public figures. I’ve always been bad with names especially those long ones. Whatever’s retained in my brain right now is these few words and phrases: “International Baccalureate Diploma Programme”, “SSS”, “Minister of Community Development, Youth and Sports”, “Dr Vivian Balakrishnan”, “VJC going to accept students from secondary 1 level”, etc.
Wonder if they are going to even be useful for my paper. I hope so.
Well, anyways, after reading the papers, I started to do my maths paper. Leftover work from yesterday. I was supposed to finish going through all my mistakes but in the end I succumb to temptation and wasted 3-4 hours away. So today I had to repent and waste my time to finish all these overdue tasks. After doing that, I had my lunch. Then my brother lured me over to his room to watch the Family Outing episode which features TOP from BigBang. And so, I was stuck for one hour or so.
Then I continued to do my work but had a really bad headache so I went to the living room to have a breather. In the end, I switched on the television and watched 2 hours worth of shows. AH! SCV is such a killer. At first I was still complaining that there’s nothing to watch. In the end I watched for 2 whole hours. After that I grumbled about myself wasting my afternoon away and studied Physics. Going to continue to do that, finish it and do the next chapter too.
Okay, got to go now. Need to continue studying. Prelims are NEXT WEDNESDAY and I still haven’t finished preparing for all of them. I think I won’t even when the paper comes but I’ll just do what I can. Have to keep constantly reminding myself that the big thing is A Levels, even after Prelims, I need to continue studying.
Sharing with you guys G-Dragon’s song from his yet to be released album.
G-Dragon – Gossip Man(feat. Kim Gun Mo)
Just to add on, the issue of him being accussed of plagiarizing other people’s work is the hot topic right now. But what I feel is that when people compose, they get inspiration from their surroundings and one of them is music that they always listen to. There might be some similarities but the songs are completely different so we shouldn’t deny him his effort for his work. Don’t be affected G-Dragon! Just continue writing your songs, we’ve seen your achievements with Big Bang’s songs and we trust your talent.
