My one and sole feeling right now, TRAMAUTISED.
Tell me, who won’t be? Or maybe not, I’m just the only one who’s not good in maths here. The paper was a total fluke. Maths Paper 1 wasn’t expected to be so difficult though I had already anticipated a tough paper from the start. I guess I was wrong, under estimated it or should I say, overestimated my self?
The start of the paper already spelled trouble. The first few questions were almost like someone copying down questions for an assignment to be done later. Fret not, I tried to assure myself and moved on to the other questions. And why, the following questions had no inclination to encourage me at all and just pushed me further down into hell. Not forgetting to add on, I’m already feeling sick way before the paper. It sucks to be sick when you’re already worried for your paper.
My mum commented that perhaps my stress impedes on my recovery. I have no idea actually. Right now, I’m just too freaked out wondering if tomorrow’s Physics Paper 2 is going to be another killer. The point that really makes me feel so stressed is that the others are not helping either. The things that they say may seem to have helped on the surface but it’s obvious that it’s not.
Look at them. They are different. Their grades prove their worries otherwise while mine just supports my thesis like I needed them at all. I have 4 papers to do in a few hours away and I hope that I get to survive through them. General Papers 1 and 2, Computing Practical Paper where I’ll finally finish this torment and then Physics Paper 2.
Right now, I really need lady luck by my side. And also, bless me health.
