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I’ve just found out something about me today. I can only organize my thoughts well and type it out fine if I listen to music. If I don’t it’ll turn out a little haywire and the way I type might get a little kinky.

Gosh, my throat hurts a little. I think I got it from Jeannette -.- LOL. It seems like I get all my sickness from her :X Oh well, I always thought that she was the healthy one but it seems otherwise. So the first place winner shall go to JOLENE! She’s really proud of it when I was commenting about it today. She claims that it’s because she eats all kinds of food and she’s not a choosey eater. Well, credits to that !

Anyways, this week I’ve actually learnt some facts that shocked me.

1. Some sugar free foods that contain sugar substitutes might lead to cancer when consumed in large amounts. And lucky me, when I checked the only sugar free food I eat which is Strepsils, it’s SAFE!

2. There’s TRANS FAT in the brownie I love to eat sold in school. Gosh ~ I nearly faint when I made that discovery.

3. Strepsils can only be taken once 3 to 4 hours. I always eat the next one after one finishes because my throat would hurt again >< AHHH !

This is soooooooooooooooo scary. No wonder the death test that I took said that I would get cancer. I haven’t been looking at what I eat at all. Also, I’m so sick of my sinus allergy(If you know what that is). Been slacking a lot lately though I’ve said that I would start studying. I seriously should just get out my house, my comfort zone and stay in some library or whatever to give my brain a workout. Much easier said than done.

10 more days to Prelims, that’s what the notice board outside the general office keeps telling me whenever I walk pass it. The red colour seems to warning me how fast Prelims is going to hit me yet my heart takes no impact. I’ve accepted it, well and good but nope, nothing changes.

Time flies like nobody’s business, somehow I feel that I’m so old. Listening to the guys in class chatting about their journey for the next two years put me in such a stressful position. I have no idea if this is right, to be envious of them without having the slightest bit to worry about their future. After A levels, I’m going to walk down the route I’ve chosen, some destination that I’ve always wanted and I won’t regret it(I hope).

If this post is marked with coherence being a factor, I would have scored zero and perhaps I ain’t even making any sense but I’m seriously just typing whatever that comes to my mind right now. Stressed? Can’t say I’m not. Afraid that I would have to waste 2 years and end up in a Polytechnic. Can’t imagine that scene at all. Wanting to lighten the burden of my parents as they’ll be paying for both my brother’s and my university education fees at the concurrently, I wish that I could get a scholarship. But it seems beyond me and not forgetting that I wanted to take Pyschology for my university course. All these might just not happen and I might just end up take Business Admin again like what I’ve planned when I entered Junior College.

Almost two years would be up soon, the fun is going to end. How I wish I could say that “I’ve made it all – memorable”

Ah, I’m really tired right now. The only reason why I’m typing this post is because I’m so tired. I mean I’m waiting for my video to load >< I’m really going insane. I bet my IQ going negative soon. Well, just to update what happened in the past few days.

Yesterday, oh no. I think it was Tuesday, I had Computing and Maths test. All thanks to Jennifer and her notes, I managed to escape from a predicament of getting zero for computing test which was a relief. I’m just sick of disappointing teachers. So tired of all their “I’ve expected more from you”/ “What happened?” / “You should have gotten better” . Which is why I’m really scared now, what if all the subjects I’m good at actually get worse? Darn ..

Maths was a blunder. Integration and my careless mistakes. No doubt Mr Wen should have placed me back to DA. I mean come on, my maths sucks. I had totally no idea why he got me out in the first place. Perhaps something was out of his mind.

Well, not much to say anyways. School is just school and next week is study break. 1 week till the Prelims and I can already forsee my results. Good luck Eng Hwee. You deserve it for you last minute work. Something to be happy about, at least today I’m already finishing question 4 for computing paper 3 part b. Left a little more. After that maybe I should start writing some comments or something. Till now, the comments are really scarce. Perhaps it needs some decoration. Or I should just type out the technical guide. We’ll see about that.

That’s all, gotta go sleep now. Really tired these few days .

Recognition. There’s too big of a difference between us.

Well, I shall confess. Actually this is the second time I’m typing this post because I’ve just read what I’ve typed earlier and it was just a pile of mess, pervasive with awkward expressions. Actually, I seriously shouldn’t be typing this post but I couldn’t restrain the temptation and here I am. Let me try organizing my thoughts. Okay, here goes nothing.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately(not like I don’t usually) about several things after much observation. It goes like this, at the end of the month, or should I say around the MIDDLE of the month, I would see 2 girls suffering from poverty. Well, it’s wrong to use this word but I just couldn’t find a better word to replace. Anyways, let me go on with my story. Apparently, Jolene would start bring home cooked food to school and Jeannette on the other hand would spend a long time considering which combinations would maximize the potential of her money. The scene is actually quite hilarious. I mean, looking at them being so hard up for cash that they have to think of so much ways to keep themselves full.

At first, like everyone who got this wrong impression, I thought it was because they have really low pocket money so they can’t really spend much. But it was WRONG. Entirely wrong because in a while, I shall illustrate the truth behind this mystery. Beside them, it really gives this false impression that I’m much loaded than them. However, that’s really not true. And most of the time people always wonder why I can still manage to meet up with my friends and have meals in a lavish restaurant, having good food. The reason is simple, I spend really little actually. You might doubt this but I understand why.

Jolene’s case

Firstly, she gets her pocket money on monthly basis and apparently her situation is so serious until WeiQin even got the wrong idea that she’s really poor. I accidentally stumbled on this when we were trying to brainstorm for ideas on Jolene’s birthday present and she suggested that we should treat her to better food as she’s always seen with her lunch boxes. I was actually laughing when I heard that. Then I explained to her that NO. She’s not poor it’s just that she spends unwisely!

So what does she spend on actually? She admitted that she always go out during weekends, meet up with her friends and have fastfood. YOU SEE! Imagine, every weekend you spend about 6 to 7 bucks on fast food and that’s not all. She continues buying finger food during that day. And she also goes out on Sundays. So it’s like a total of minimum 14 bucks in 2 days. And that’s only the weekends. For a month, that would be 56 dollars. We add transport money of 20 bucks, that would sum up to 76 bucks. An average JC student gets about $45 per week allowance from their parents. So, she’ll be left with $104. That seems a lot. But in fact, its really little. If you divide it within 20 days, you only have $5.20. That would look okay too but if you think about Jolene’s spending, it’s really NOT enough.

Basically, she not only have her meals which costs around 4 dollars I guess? She would kind of order a larger portion so that would actually cost $3 or more. Then she would buy a packet drink of $0.50. So in total it’s $3.50. By right, she would still have money to save but she doesn’t stop there! She buys a lot of finger food and her favourite Coffee milk tea that she would get withdrawal effects from if she doesn’t drink it. So in the end, you’ll understand why she’s in such a tight financial postition.

Jeannette’s case

Well, I have to admit that she actually gets quite little but she don’t have the courage to ask her dad for more so .. she can only make do with it. She has a really good appetite. Actually, the best I’ve ever seen out of all my girlfriends. I mean, that would seem okay since she exercises a lot. I think the thing about her is that every break, she’s finding food to eat. The only sentence I’ve never heard from her mouth is “I’m full”. It seems like she always have space. A bottomless pit ! The thing that puzzles me is that she’s so thin. Life just isn’t fair huh.

Okay, so her financial spendings are around 4 dollars a day, better than Jolene. Actually, I was really puzzled because we always go to the same stall so how can she spend her money so much faster than me. Then I just remembered that she would always order a larger portion so hence it costs more. And meat really can’t be excluded from her plate. You might think that it’s still doesn’t add up to a lot. But wait till you hear mine.

My case

Life is unfair like I say, I eat lesser but I’m still FAT! Whatever -.- Anyways, I normally just eat a plate of rice or lesser for the whole day, unless I crave for a can of cold milo ~ And I’ll never ask for larger portions because I can’t finish even the normal portion. Normally Jolene and Jeannette would help me finish it all up, not wasting any food. This reminds me of secondary school. LOL. My friends would always help me to finish everything because I always can’t finish it. Anyways, I’m always eating from the same stalls. The Malay stalls or the Western stalls. For the Malay stall, I just realised, I’m kind of vegetarian ? LOL. I didn’t realize that too until I thought about what the Uncle in the chinese stall asked if I was a vegetarian.

Apparently everytime I would always buy white beehoon with tofu. LOL. I was busy convincing the Uncle I wasn’t, it’s just that I prefer beehoon and I absolutely LOVE tofu. And that would cost around a dollar. Yeah, that’s how little it is x.x Or Malay stall, rice with veggie, tofu(yes, again) and hashbrown would cost around $1.20 I think. For the other malay stall I would normally eat horfun with hashbrown which makes it $1.60. Western stall would be a packet of fries which cost $1. So in average, I spend less than $2 on meals with a drink added. If I add any finger food, it would still be lesser than their spendings. Furthmore, I don’t go out on weekends unless there’s some celebration going on or whatever. So that saves me quite a lot.

And yeah, that’s where my “extra” cash come from.

So, I shall conclude that sometimes being having more money doesn’t mean that the person is rich, I guess the way we spend money affects it greatly ~!

My eyes hurt right now, and of course I know the reason. Dry eyes resulted from the blowing of the fan directly into my eyes. People are just lazy aren’t they? Or they are just weird or maybe it’s just me. I knew it would happen but I just don’t feel like changing the direction of the fan. Well, I got what I deserve I guess.

School was boring as usual, not like I expected something to happen though. Joyce shared with me a piece of information that really shocked me. DBSK is going to disband, I mean at least that’s the latest news right now because of some financial issues between the company and them. Seriously! YG Entertainment treats their artists better and shouldn’t that be the way? This is weird.

But anyways, the rest of the lessons ain’t really worth a mention or perhaps a line or two. We did GP Paper 2 today. I guess it was pretty bad, I couldn’t finish the short questions. They were too tough ! Maybe it’s my brain or something. It’s degrading as time passes by. I’m starting to lose confidence in all my subjects and I wonder if I can even get into a university after two strenuous years of studying. Computing practical was a relief as I’ve completed question 3 with screenshots and all that’s left is an abundant amount of time, 3 hours to complete my question 4. Hope everything goes as planned and I wouldn’t have to worry. This is A Levels, it concerns my life and death. Economics time piece on the other hand was a worry for me. Even more so when everyone commented that it was quite easy. Not to me though, failing subjects are starting to impede on my progress. Should I even take A Levels ? I’m starting to doubt it.

Well, as expected, our(LingLan and me) plan failed through due to the scorching heat. It almost seemed like the blazing sun would swallow us any minute. So we changed it into a long walk home which ended up in 1 whole hour. Pretty long I guess. The point was that we were trying to escape from the fate of a heat stroke but in the end, we still took the risk. I mean, we stayed under the sun for a longer time but perhaps we were less dehydrated?

I reached home at around 4 plus with the intention of studying for both tests, computing and maths that would sadly, take place tomorrow. That was overturned as usual, without much effort. In the end, I was drawn towards the newspapers which was a miracle? It was quite surprising this time as I read all the articles without skipping any that I felt as boring. Weird huh. Or perhaps, it’s just my luck that they fall in my interests perfectly. Who knows?

There was this article that caught my attention. India is facing a crisis, overpopulation. And she’s expected to take over China to being the most populous area. And so, it was pretty amazing looking at all the efforts the government had implemented and is going to. I mean, look at us and also Japan. Our population is completely dying. Perhaps one day Singaporeans would be seen as an endangered species? Another bad point about small population, ours is an OLD one. Which means when compared to China who has a young population where most of the people are 15 years old and below, we suffer many losses. The disadvantages are obvious.

The other article that appealed me was the one on smoking. Somehow it just relates to economics and of course my most favourite topic, market failure. It seems as though that the government has done a lot to reduce the number of smokers in our country but on the other hand it may seem that they are just trying to make it seem like they ARE doing lots. I mean, why not just ban it since it’s becoming a problem to deal with ? As stated in the article, the World Health Organization has blamed smoking for low productivity. So yeah, it’s gona affect Singapore as the number of smokers are increasing and the most worrying fact ? Underage smoking. It was shocking to me, totally when LingLan shared with me some names of the people who smoke in our school. I mean, I’ve never thought that my friends would smoke, let alone school mates. It’s totally insane.

Besides, what’s wrong with this smokers. They know that it’s bad for their health, it harms others besides them and most importantly, it harms their pockets. So why not get the addiction kicked and get over it ? Many argue that nicotine is at fault here, making them addictive. But that ain’t true isn’t it? Because when there’s a will, there would surely be a way. And those people out there, those that managed to kick the habit. It was because of determination, thats why they could do it. If you really want to get out of it, determination can do amazing things. It all comes down to the brain and how willing and determined you are. If your determination means that 2 days without smoking would kill you, forget all the useless resolutions that you’ve made and promised with others. You’ll never kick the addiction. In fact, you’ll most probably fail in most stuff that you do as this weak determination hinders your progress. Definitely.

Just to remind, I’m not here to shoot anyone out there but just voicing out my views. Perhaps you may disagree with what I think and of course there are all kinds of ways people view this matter but this is just my rantings(you may classify it as this if you want).

Oh, and to end off, read the review on starvation located at the second last page I think, of the main section of the paper. I think the author really makes sense and I support his stand!

Sharing with you guys, my new “addiction”, Ft Island – First Kiss

I just remembered something that Jolene said during Physics lesson so I thought that I should share. Every physics lecture, we have this lecture attendance sheet where we have to sign our names. And the point was not many was serious enough to actually sign properly so you can see all kinds of signatures over there.

For Jolene’s and mine, it was full of celebrity names. So she started saying the “hwee’s celeberity charts”. When I just entered JC, it was full of JaeJoong and perhaps some random names here and there but they never lasted long. So JaeJoong was the norm. After that, HyunJoong started popping up and the end of last year and this year. Then also came KyuJung and all but yeah, it was still insignificant compared to HyunJoong. Slowly slowly, EunHyuk came into the picture but he didn’t last very long till TOP completely took over his place. So now, he’s all over the place, not only in the physics attendance sheet. LOL.

Seriously, I’ve never thought so much about it and when Jolene told me about it I seriously thought that it was pretty hilarious. She told me that I was unfaithful. I retorted that she was a flirt ! I can’t idolize so many at once and yet she has so many on her list. That scene was pretty funny and she just gave a chuckle.