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Gosh, it totally sucks going back to school. Not forgetting that we have to wake up early and all. AHH! I’m just a lazy girl ain’t I?

Well anyways, it’s so difficult to be in a good mood when you have to do an essay right in the first period. And to worsen it, my confidence for essay writing is falling. School for the rest of the day was quite normal except for the fact that Computing lessons was pretty hilarious with the Yan Ya Lun joke. Insider joke

Oh, and it really never fails to amaze me how people get argue over such minor issues. It’s pretty hilarious actually but yeah, I guess it adds a little colours to our everyday boring lives doesn’t it?

Lastly, a good piece of news to share! G-Dragon’s new album has been placed 15th on the United World Charts! CONGRATZ! This chart ranks the top selling albums according to global sales figures and national album charts and it features international music heavyweights like The Black Eyed Peas, Lady Gaga and the late Michael Jackson. Also, at 15th place, he’s one spot ahead of Beyonce. G-Dragon is also the only Korean artist in the top 20 making it not only a victory for himself, but one for K-pop as well.

Well, time to do my homework!

I just got a shock of my life. It’s been so long since I’ve tuned in to 98.7FM and I was just checking out the charts online. To my amazement, Nobody by Wonder Girls is ranked 2nd. Gosh, what happened? I mean its not in the negative way but I didn’t know that people would accept korean stars singing english because most of the time people criticize them for their english pronunciation and all. Well, but I have to say I still prefer to Korean version (:

Oh yeah, did I mention that I’ve finished watching Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion? The ending was awesome! Not those typical lame endings that you can just skip. The last episode totally creates another twist. I nearly cried ><” It’s so touching. All hail Lelouch! P I’ve just checked and it seems there are rumours that there would be a third season released in next year. I hope its true but I wonder what additions to the storyline can they come up with? I heard that Lelouch is immortal like his dad. I wonder =l

Well, today was an unfruitful day as usual. The previous days were the same. No productive work I guess. There’s less then 50 days to A’s and I desperately need to get IN THE MOOD. I think I need to do some major changes to my way of studying or something or I’ll end up flunking my A’s.

Oh anyways. Check out Swensen’s great offer right here! xD Anyone in the mood? There’s only 9 days left till this offer ends ):

I feel so out of place right now. Just ain’t in the mood for anything. I really just wana stay disconnected with the rest of the world and live in mine for the entire afternoon and night today. But I thought I should pull myself up and yeah, get a grip of myself. It seems like the heat is getting to me and my body’s responding by being sick. Crap. This is just the times where you say “Life sucks” isn’t it? I can lament all I want but nothing’s gona change.

Did I mention before I hate this the most? People like to complain so much and appreciate so little of others. I hate this trait of people including it in me. Because I know how it feels when you’ve put in so much effort and all you get is some nasty comments that people spout out without even thinking once through their brains. Hey, give them some credit! Why can’t anyone just get it. No one can keep giving and receive nothing. If there’s anyone that benevolent, I applaud you. Seriously.

And why do people just love to take advantage of others? It really makes me wonder if helping others is actually a good thing to do. It’s true that it benefits others but it sucks in the way they the person doesn’t really appreciate it. Do they? Gosh, I’m just a miserable unkind girl who hates helping others. I help and I grumble, yet I don’t have the courage to reject helping them. I’m just some lame person here who can’t do anything and starts complaining about it.

I have no idea why I’m even saying all these but I’m really sick of everything right now. And .. forget it. Shall just do whatever what I intended to.

On Friday night, I finally got a hair cut. I was pretty shocked about the length of my hair now. It’s not really short but I expected it to be longer. My mother even asked the person to get it even shorter. I protested like crazy. Gosh, my plans to curl it at the end of this year might just be blown away by that few snips.

Saturday was a long day I guess. I woked up relatively early compared to the other Saturdays. Finally went to make my ez-link card. I gave up the hope that it will be picked up by some kind soul, I’m just not that lucky I guess. And my phone is still not back. I just can’t get used to the phone I’m using now and it makes me irritated so easily. Also, we learnt a lesson of how important it is to practise prior booking. Well, and so we went for a K-ing session at Kbox in Cineleisure. Was too cold to actually get in the mood actually. Then my brother met up with us and yeah.

Got myself a piano tie (: Guess that was one of the happy things that happened that day. Reached home pretty early due to the unlucky event.

Today I didn’t went to the gym because my flu is getting worse. And it’s affecting me greatly. Its one of the reasons why I feel so out of place. In the end I read my storybook for the whole afternoon and finished two of them. Have three more to read. Oh yeah, and I went to Fiesta Brasilia to have lunch at United Square. I have to say the food was good and it wasn’t expensive. We had buffet and yeah, there were 10 kinds of meat to be tried. There were also salads and other food. All the chefs were from overseas, including the waitresses. Our total bill came up to a mere $100 when we had eaten so much good food! (:

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Oh yeah, anyways here’s a cool song to share (:

The Sunstreak – Until I met you

But it’s time to face the truth, I will never be with you ~

These changes that I feel occuring within me, please let me know it’s for the better and not the latter. I’m beginning to get used to things or should I say, it doesn’t even matter anymore. Oh wait, noticing “it” already means that I’m caring about that matter isn’t it? But I can’t do anything so I should just let it pass and keep telling myself it doesn’t concern me.

My determination right now is still wavering, despite all the harsh words received by others and myself. I just can’t seem to focus, I need someone to pull me along. Yeah, I still can’t manage my own duties and there’s much to learn. Sometimes I wish time wouldn’t pass so quickly and let me remain as a pampered child forever.

I’m so tired of those people around me who only knows how to point fingers at others while not looking at themselves through a mirror. We’re all the same yet we’re different. Why can’t they just understand this? These differences we have might not be something negative yet why do they spout those seemingly harmless words?

These differences that are innate cannot be changed but I know I’m different and I’ve learnt to accept myself for that matter. Even if I’m different, time will change everything if I can just put in more effort. The same amount of hard work does not result in the same results. But people AREN’T equal. We never are. Some are better at different aspects of lives. I know I’ll find mine soon.

There’s no reason to lose hope now for the light is getting brighter.