I’m diagnosed with a mental illness.

I have no idea what it is. I’m just so sick of being at home and I can’t focus at my work because there’s still unexplainable feeling. I can’t focus at anything, even when I’m doing leisure activities such as watching dramas or others. And the only hint I get is perhaps I need to get out of my house. If not, I’ll probably end up nuts or something.

I feel so irritated and every breath I take feels so heavy. Being unable to focus on my work makes me so nervous but I just can’t pay attention. The glaring ’11′ seems to a pair of surveillance camera watching my every move. This is insane. Even when at night when I’m preparing to go to sleep, I can’t even relax properly. I just keep thinking about how much I have not done.

I think I better go get some fresh air tomorrow. Get out of the house, take a bus or mrt.