Hwee-ified

Life sucks.

Been so long since I’ve those kind of “emo” posts. But my life seriously sucks now or maybe I’m just thinking too much again. I really have this urge to just quit my job and enjoy my holidays, my break which is probably gona end in like 4 days? It’s as if I’m threading on this rope which is thinning by the second. My life’s in danger and there’s no helplines.

I seriously need a break. It’s been around a month since I’ve joined Uniqlo. Life’s been hectic everyday. It almost seems like a cycle. Everyday I’ll wake up, shower, then go to work. When I reach home, I’ll shower again and go to bed. Everyday I’ll ponder over the same question, “Is this the kind of life I want?” I keep thinking if I would regret in the future of which when I think back and realised that I’ve wasted much of my time doing things that I don’t enjoy. But if I really think about it, do I really not like this job?

I have to admit that this job actually isn’t hateful nor is it difficult. The working hours are just too long and there’s this continuous stress streaming from nowhere. Impolite customers just totally spoils your mood and affect your work performance and attitude for the rest of the day. Its so hard to keep up to the standards that our superiors want. I’m starting to feel that retail really ain’t my cup of tea. Smiling is so tough. What happens when you’re no longer smiling from within? Fake smiles and fake greetings. Is that even worth mentioning?

Worse still, you have to watch out for both customers and supervisors. Life is getting too tiring for me. Too much for me to handle. You have to do this, do that. Everything just kind of accumulates. Heavier and heavier till one day there’s not even any breathing space. But humans are weird, or maybe I am. After every offday, I feel recharged and I’ll say, I guess its fine. I’m sure I can do better. I’ll work harder. But how long can this determination stay?

Darn. I’ll just continue ranting and going in circles. People around me encourage me to persevere on and that these few months would end soon. But the point is why am I even enduring? It comes all down to the main question. Why do I even work? For the money? Not really. For the experience? Perhaps. That was actually my main reason of working as a retail staff. Maybe I should just quit. It actually doesn’t even matter right? It’ll probably affect my pocket money and maybe I’ll linger around home. To Uniqlo, perhaps its just another staff that has to go and they’ll just employ another one.

So what is it that’s stopping me? There’s so many what ifs that I’m going insane. Thinking about this and that. Ahh. What should I do, really. I wish someone could just help me now …

5 more days

Work work work work and work. Just this one thing has sucked up all my FREE time. Okay. Maybe not. Its sleep and work. But sleep is a basic requirement right. So I guess all the blame is on work now

Well, I haven’t posted on my Korea trip yet and its been so long already. I’ve not even gotten the photos from my aunt though part of it is with me. Ah. I’ve not even LOOKED at the photos yet -.- I really should find some time to go over to my aunt house and look at them, put them into my computer and upload it (:

Yesterday we saw another celebrity again! And it was Ain who told me AGAIN! I’m sure she’s a fake malay. LOL. She knows more chinese stars more than me I think. Especially all the mediacorp actresses and actors. She claimed that she don’t watch Suria often which supports my stand!

I had my lunch brought from home. Tasted pretty good Then went to choose my new uniform for work. And what does that mean? NO NEED TO PAY FOR MY PREVIOUS UNIFORM WHICH COSTS $188plus! So this time, I’m gona get something real cheap :X

Oh. And JAY-SON LIED to me. He said that today was his last day. Ain was the one who let me in on this. Then after that I went to ask him about it. He was shocked and said “How did you know? It’s top secret!”. I think its top secret because it ain’t true! I went to ask Belinda about it and she said with confidence that he’s lying. SUPER lying. I’m gona confront him today!

Okay. Thats all. Oh. And I decided to lose 10kg. TEN KG! I’ll hit that! Seriously! DETERMINATION GIRL (:

Ps. 5 more days to either heaven or hell..

Offday (:

Yesterday slept only for 5 hours. Woke up at around 9 o’clock to meet buin at bugis. Went to sing k. My voice is -.- now.

Then met up with Minji at bugis mrt station. She’s super thin x.x 2D character! She’s like thinner than Joyce!! Her waist is half of Joyce’s. *envies*

After that we had a long ride to Pasir Ris. Met up with Dominic and Hancong to buy Jean’s birthday present. Apparently White Sands ain’t a good shopping area so we ended up with buying snacks in the end. Took a bus to Downtown and had Sakura buffet for dinner! As usual, I wasted my $25.70. I should stop going for buffets -.- Totally a waste of money. Most of the dishes there didn’t suit my taste and almost all were seafood. I think I only ate 2 plates in total. 1 plate wasn’t even finished and that was the desserts plate. The cakes totally -.-

Well, at least the main purpose was Jean’s birthday celebration. There were around 30 people there which was pretty awesome. All Uniqlo people (: Jas, HC, Dom, Minji and I sat near each other and started chatting. We talked about our JC stuff and left Minji quiet for the whole time. When we realised it, we thought it was the topic. So we changed to talk about our secondary school matters but I guess it didn’t work as well. We kept linking it back to JC -.-

Anyways, somehow I got addicted to communicating with hand signs and all with Minji. Most of our conversations were using hand signals. When we were asked why we were using that, our excuse was that we were sitting too far from each other when actually we’re only a seat diagonally apart -.-

Went to the arcade. Been so long since I’ve stepped foot into one. Weiling, Minji and I ended up as a group. We’re the ones who rarely play in one -.- So we ended up playing Bishie Bashie and died together. LOL. We totally suck! And our hands got all sore after all the hitting. Then we played the basketball machine which was pretty fun But I still feel that the real one is more fun x.x

Watched the others race. Jas won in the end! YAY! Dom ended up second, Kelvin as third I think and Alicia fourth. Hancong who claims that he rarely plays ended up last. But it was a thrilling match. They were so NEAR to each other -.- So cool. If its me, I’ll be the last and far away from them. As in there’s sure no way I can catch up and over take any of them.

We took pictures and left around 11pm. Took mrt to Tampines and got on bus 969 home all thanks to Chelsea Oh. And I got worried for nothing. The last train to Jurong East is like still long. Suddenly so glad that I don’t live towards Marina Bay area (:

End of offday!

It’s too troublesome to think of a title!

Guess what? Lin Jun Jie came into our store yesterday (I mean the day day before since its already 1am now). And whats more shocking is that darling~ I mean Ain told me about it. The other malay staff were like “who is he”? When Ain said that he’s a mandarin pop singer, the others were like “Chey, no wonder I don’t know”. But still, he’s super cute! Well, only ShuYing and I felt that way. The others weren’t excited and those that were was just because its the few moments where you get to see a star up close. YanHua was so sad because she didn’t get to catch him. Oh, and also MinJi who really wanted to see a Singapore star real life.

Earlier in the morning, LingLan came to get her jeggings (which means jean leggings as explained by her). She didn’t manage to try it on because she was rushing for work! See la! So late just come Anyways was super happy she came to visit me still Guess I’ll find time to visit her and YiLing at Millennium Walk some day~

Seems like Uniqlo is losing its attraction. Sales for the past few days weren’t good and so was yesterday. There were more staff than customers on the shop floor which was pretty sad. Chagiyo (Minji) and I ended up cleaning up stains and moping the floor. We had seriously nothing to do x.x Nothing to fold, nope ><

After that went to eat Korean food for lunch and famous amos cookies! D

Actually today was pretty slack. More suanning for Simon and it was pretty hilarious listening to Valerie nagging him

Time to go maple It’s been a longggg time~ Ciao

Dilemma

For some reason, I’m NOT tired. JUST KIDDING!

Time passes slower and slower for me during work. I wonder why ): Maybe I’m getting sick of Uniqlo. Maybe I’m not. Who cares. Anyways, I’ve made up my mind to wait till the release of my results (which I hope would not CLASH with my BTT) before I make a choice of whether to continue working there or quit. It totally sucks when you have to make choices. The suckier part? Life is full of them. Damn it all!

Anyways, I realised how much I missed my friends, my clique ): Its been so long since I’ve hanged out with them. Nono. Let me rephrase that. It should be since I’ve SEEN them. Oh, and reality check. It’s been almost 3 weeks since I’ve joined Uniqlo. Scary. No wonder people say time would just pass faster when you’re older. I’m already feeling old with the 17-ers in my workplace. The entire place is filled with them. In and out, up and down.

Okay. I have absolutely no idea why this is becoming a lengthy post. Ah. Seriously. I do know why. It’s because I’m so so so tired that my brain neurons have no ability to even communicate with each other. No electricity, nothing.

Before I go off and then lament about forgetting to type this and that, let me recall what happened during work today~

The first duty I had in the afternoon was CASHIER! Guess what? I made a mistake AGAIN. YES! AGAINNNN!!!! How blur can I get? Thank goodness God was by my side. And maybe lady luck too. Seriously, I have to thank all the Gods up there, whoever you are, thank you for watching over me. First reason, the person was a student and did NOT make a big fuss out of everything. Oh wait. I forgot to explain how it really happened. Okay so I, being a “careful” person went to scan one item TWICE. So in the end the person paid twice the amount of money for that SINGLE item. Luckily she realised it in time and told me about it. I was so apologetic. Couldn’t believe I made such a major mistake. And when I sincerely apologized, she shrugged it off like it was NOT A PROBLEM. OMG. How could such a saint exist? So I told her to wait for awhile and was preparing myself for a huge scolding. The second better thing that happened, Saifuudin (forgot the spelling) was just THERE. OMG. YES! So he helped me without a hitch. Solved the problem with coolness and suave. Returned the customer the correct change with NO HICCUPS, nothing! He didn’t even reprimand me for whatever I did. I know I was wrong but he didn’t make a big fuss. Nope. I guess he realised I already knew I was wrong and all and decided to save the scolding. THANK YOU!

After my scary cashier business, I had lunch with Jas and Minji. Finally, BURGERKING. 10% staff discount and their promotion granted Minji and I a fulling meal $5.40 provided us with a double cheese burger, chicken tenders, fries and a drink! How good is that? Jas got herself a student meal which she regretted in the end when she saw our tray. Chatted over lunch and got to know each other better.

Then we left Burger King and went back to Uniqlo. Innerwear just gets better! I mean REALLY. Not sarcastic or anything. I packaged all the loose and untidy items, dressed mannequins and got the front ticket for a live prank show. Apparently, there was this customer who went to prank my supervisor, SIMON. LOL. Hilarious. The lady is so cute. She really knows how to strut her stuff. Her acting is better than those Hollywood actresses. At first it all happened with her trying out clothes. In Uniqlo, you have to remove your footwear before you enter the “cubicle”. So she did. And when she came out, she gave herself a shock because she realised her shoes were missing. The point was that she bought new shoes and she forgot that she changed them beforehand. So she thought that they were “changed”. When she realised it, she thought that she could use it as a prank so that she could see the first hand reaction from our supervisor. It turned out that Simon was pretty calm and solved the problem with haste. But of course, it still brightened up the tired atmosphere around us. That was a really good gag. Love the lady. Welcome back any time! (:

Before my last shift came, I had a short break. That granted me to come to know of a cheap deal. Chelsea got this Polaroid camera for only 145 bucks and its really WORTH IT. The pictures were good. Though the film is expensive, I still think she got a good deal. Had fun with my colleagues, taking photos and stuff. Ah. And I really can’t handle polaroid cameras well. Even Dominic pointed that out. Chelsea is really SO NICE. She retorted “Polaroids are meant to be uneven” to Dominic when he started to make fun of my photo taking skills. Whee~ Love her!

Last shift of Women’s middle ended at 10pm. I was actually stationed there but there was not a single soul nor FLY. So I went to the fitting room to help JAY-SON (accentuated for a purpose) pack the clothes. I think I can do factory work already. I think Uniqlo is really smart. They save a lot of money and time for hiring staff. The point is that all the staff can do the tasks given. There’s no specific staff for this task or that. We all have to know packaging, greeting, folding, cashiering and last of all, alterations. Yes. All your altered jeans are done by our Uniqlo staff (: Cool yeah?

We cleaned up the store, folded lots of clothes all over and learnt korean from Minji and Chelsea

After that I was accompanied by lots of others on the train home. A nice way of ending a long and exhausting day. Suddenly, I don’t feel like quitting anymore~

Time to sleep. Ciaoz ^^