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It all starts with the ‘J’ word

Hwee — Sat, 24 Jul 2010 16:03:29 +0000

Sucks, but I;m gona make it better. Then something happens and I’ll fall down again. After that I’ll motivate myself again but the cycle continues. However every time, its a snowball effect. It just accumulates, and accumulates and accumulates.. You know something..?

Jealousy kills.

Rant, rant and more rants

Hwee — Mon, 12 Jul 2010 14:39:12 +0000

I feel so emotionally stressed!! I think its going to lead to distress soon -.- not eustress. Gosh. I feel so tired. Everything’s weighing me down ): I thought with school, I would feel much better, with more time to myself but I guess I was wrong. Many things have been happening lately. They are eating up so much of my time and energy. Its not like they ain’t worth it but I guess I’m the one at fault. I can’t cope with them ): Haix.. I really wish there’s more than 24 hours a day. Just an hour would help a lot too ):

Actually had lots of things in mind to blog about but right now I feel super drained. Too tired to do anything. All I want to do is lie on bed and get enough sleep. My dark eye circles are expanding at the speed of light. Pretty soon, you won’t even see my eyes anymore. Maybe I’m evolving into a panda. Argh. Whatever.

Bye people.

Its a full circle

Hwee — Fri, 02 Jul 2010 14:10:57 +0000

Why do people always make me repeat myself? Repeat repeat repeat repeat.. it just continues on as if there’s no ending. It’s such a waste of energy to reiterate things that don’t have a need to. If you really are interested, then you would have paid attention to it at the first place. If I’m at least significant to you, you would have at least separate this SIGNIFICANT space in your BRAIN to remember things that are related to me.

I’m not someone to fill in your “bored” moments. For example, YOU are super bored. YOU open your messenger and realized that I’m the only one online. Hence YOU had no choice but to double click on my nick and start to ENTERTAIN YOURSELF. So, YOU start to get the conversation rolling by asking questions that YOU already have the answer to.

To say the truth, I can actually respond in two ways. First, get angry and start giving you a piece of my mind. Second, play along. The difference? The latter is actually the worse off one because I have no intention to tell you how pathetic you are to have just exposed yourself to me on how much you do not even care about me as a friend. The first category people have at least some hope somewhere, here and there.

A waste of both our precious time. Perhaps not yours, since you were bored from the beginning. But it tells me a lot really, about you; how you think of me; and our totally redundant relationship. Yes. That’s how it is. I don’t care if you just laugh and shrug it off because I’ve already seen your true colours, inside out.

Turbulence

Hwee — Sun, 20 Jun 2010 18:13:58 +0000

Rooted, I couldn’t fly. Stumped by problems. People and their comments, hovering over me. Determined, I worked hard. Day and night, in and out, just to fulfill my dreams. Finally, efforts paid off. I soared. Head in the clouds; conceited, I have become. Grey clouds in a distance warned of an incoming disaster. Words got in but got out too fast. Procrastination took over my head. Butterflies fluttered, I could not stay strong. Overwhelmed by chaos, what have I done?

i _ _ l a t e d

Hwee — Sat, 15 May 2010 13:48:36 +0000

Big World ~ Shahnavid (via Deviantart)

The world is something I can’t comprehend.

People are weird.

They do things I do not understand.

I wish I can just stay alone, away from everything else that don’t make sense.

Just what should I do..?

Hwee — Sun, 09 May 2010 02:22:12 +0000

I can’t even decide what to do now, how can I think about the future and make a wise choice?

Hwee — Tue, 27 Apr 2010 15:54:12 +0000

maybe just a little.. blehs ><

Seriously shit

Hwee — Sat, 17 Apr 2010 17:25:05 +0000

Life is full of disappointments and lately, they ain’t letting me off. I seriously feel like using the F word. This is so crappy. I wonder when would I start to love my life. Maybe when one of my foot is in the grave? Or maybe even never? I thought life was going to get better after JC. Nope it doesn’t. I’m too positive eh?

School, friends, family, work.. blah blah blah. And the list goes on. Does anything even turn out right? So freaking tired of everything. It almost seem that every choice that I make is a wrong choice. I don’t even know what I should do already. So damn lost but but can I say? So freaking disappointed but what can I do? So idiotically worried but all I can do is pray.

SHIT.

Hwee — Sat, 17 Apr 2010 17:15:49 +0000

I’m tired of ..

damn it all

Hwee — Fri, 16 Apr 2010 11:30:21 +0000

Disappointed. What can I say?