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School sucked today. Yeah. You didn’t read wrongly at all. I feel so tired. So tired of everything right now. I wish that I can just have a break from everything, go on a trip, go for a holiday. Perhaps even alone, whatever. Just let me have some time to myself, to sort everything out. 

I wasn’t in the mood to go school at all today. Still crawled out despite my mind’s fierce objections. I guess GP blocktest really was bad. I didn’t even know whatever the AQ was asking at all. I wrote sleeping pills. Craziness. I guess I just can’t be bothered any more. I hated the venue. Why can’t we have proper tables and chairs in the hall instead?

Economics. Worst lesson ever. Disappointment ? More than that. I’ve realised how sacarstic teachers can be. I wonder why . Yeah. I couldn’t believe it at all. My sucky results. Second time I’ve failed. Which was really .. Whatever . Zz . I mean, come on. Economics is one of my better subjects and now, it’s a complete disaster. I wonder what happened huh.

Force an answer out of me? Gosh. I wonder how insensitive you can even be. I think I won’t be able to control myself next time. Whatever. Attitude problem ? You got it right. I can’t believe how realistic you can get. I’ve finally understand what that word means through you. “Thanks” for opening up my eyes and broadening my horizons. I think I can start believing what I first thought was false rumours about you. They are so true. I’ll prove you wrong and shut your bloody hell useless spouting mouth up.

I can’t believe whatever you’ve said. Perhaps, it was just a causual remark of yours. But it hurts, really. And whatever you said just keep running through my mind like there’s no stop button. I’ve to stand up. 

Computing lesson was refreshing? Missed Mrs Liang. It’s been a long time since it was her. She’s still so motherly like and somehow whatever she says will go into my head somehow. Databases huh. And whatever she teaches, it’s so logical till you get it. Even though most of the time, I couldn’t focus at all, kept thinking of whatever I’ve done. Darn. It sucks, but she’ll snap you out of it.

Break was .. yeah.

Physics lecture, we went through the answers for the blocktest paper. Seems fine till now which is really shocking. But the other questions might really be bad. So I’ll keep my fingers crossed. I don’t want such a pathetic death, at least I should still look okay. I’ve a feeling, parent teacher meeting is going to be a “history repeats itself” incident. Damn.

Maths. Well. Haven’t got back the paper but I know it sucks. I’ve expected it already. Spent more time on other subjects instead. Couldn’t expect much from it.

GP . I wonder why I enjoy GP only. Though what we do is kind of weird. Vocabulary exercises and all. Really strange. I mean, I thought we’ll be doing comprehension papers or essays back to back. But that doesn’t seem like the case. And it’s like slacking but doing work at the same time. Weird. The last part of imagining scenarios was hilarious. Really had fun for the first time of the day. Wasn’t in such a bad mood already.

Computing. Shocked that I passed for Mr Ho’s part. Because I really don’t understand what I’m writing at all. Yeah. I need somehow to help me. But I don’t know who to ask anymore. It seems like I’m wasting their time, I just can’t get them right anyways.

Dance was okay. I think I’m starting to enjoy it. I wonder why school is starting to burden me. Ahh . I have absolutely no idea what I’m saying anymore. We did up the poles ~ Now it looks really good. Black and silver ribbons all around them ! (: Well. I shouldn’t be disappointed anymore. Should accept whatever there is. We tried out the space in the hall, shifted all the tables to the side because we wanted to get the feel of the place. Tomorrow we are going to NUS for our full dress reharsal already. Suddenly march is ending and April is gona come. Syf is coming, gotta work hard and get a silver or gold. Do our best people ! (: 

I’m gona get into the nerd mood soon. I don’t want to disappoint my parents and duh, myself. I get disappointed easily. I guess I should make it my motivation. Okay. Time to read my pile of newspapers. Been feeling real guilty for not reading because of the block tests. Now time to repent ! P

Lastly, a great song by SS501 again ! :X You’re man ! If any guy sings this, I’ll come back . LOL .

SS501 – U R MAN