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I feel so emotionally stressed!! I think its going to lead to distress soon -.- not eustress. Gosh. I feel so tired. Everything’s weighing me down ): I thought with school, I would feel much better, with more time to myself but I guess I was wrong. Many things have been happening lately. They are eating up so much of my time and energy. Its not like they ain’t worth it but I guess I’m the one at fault. I can’t cope with them ): Haix.. I really wish there’s more than 24 hours a day. Just an hour would help a lot too ):

Actually had lots of things in mind to blog about but right now I feel super drained. Too tired to do anything. All I want to do is lie on bed and get enough sleep. My dark eye circles are expanding at the speed of light. Pretty soon, you won’t even see my eyes anymore. Maybe I’m evolving into a panda. Argh. Whatever.

Bye people.

Finally got my new notebook yesterday (: Actually wanted a Macbook Pro but I decided to give it up after my brother convinced me that it ain’t worth its expensive price tag. So, I got the notebook of my second choice, Vaio E Guess its obvious what colour I got. I was contemplating on the spot whether I should get a sleek Black or cute Hotpink. Well, the latter won after all

Well, haven’t got the time to actually transfer my stuff over yet from the previous laptop. I have not even completed my homework for a start -.- Gosh. Procrastination! I’m gona get a HD!! I don’t care. Oh. For your information, HD stands for High Distinction, not High Definition. HAHAHAHA :X

Ah. And thanks for popping over to visit my mum yesterday (: You guys really cheered her up. Good news! She’s going to be discharged in two days time. Guess the doctor really predicted correctly, 1 week of hospitalization is all she needed. Her recovery was so speedy! During the first few days she was still weak and all..

Brother: Lets go….

*okay okay. Closes notebook..*

I can’t believe how fast time FLEW. 5 days almost seemed like 5 minutes. Okay. Exaggerated, but still, TOO FAST. People always tell me that once the first digit of your age hit 2, time will pass even faster and then suddenly, you’re already using a walking stick. I haven’t reach that “turning point” yet but I can feel the acceleration in time already even though I’m only 19 this year. Well, some says that 20 is when your “LIFE” begins. I don’t know that yet but I guess I’ll know soon. No matter what, I hope its good news.

This week had been really packed (The week hasn’t been totally past yet but I’m already feeling the tension). There was driving lessons in the middle of school, totally hated it. I’m starting to develop a fear, nono. A sense of hatred towards driving. Start to hate it seriously bad. Every time a lesson approaches, I want to think of millions of excuses to get out of it. But never would I miss it, why? MONEY BINDS ME TO THE COURSE! Also, I have to keep reminding myself how I want to just get it OVER and DONE WITH! I can’t push it back any further either because my PDL expires during September. I wish time can pass even faster. Gosh. Life sucks with driving lessons. IT DOES.

Plus, I seriously DETEST the SSDC website. Every time I want to book more lessons, it HANGS. It just does not want to earn my money. Crap -.-

Well anyways, I’m starting to get used to University life. We thought it was slack, I thought it was, until I realized how LITTLE effort I’ve been putting into my studies. And right now when I’m on track? I DO NOT HAVE ENOUGH TIME! There is actually quite a number of things to do for each module ): I got to work hard if I want to get a good degree. Not just one with credit! ><”

Been going to the hospital frequently right after school lately. Quite happy to see my mum recovering (: But still, a little disappointed here and there because I hoped for a speedy recovery, perhaps a little too much ><” Oh well, its at least really fast!

Actually, its pretty funny when you think about it. Every single day, I go over to the same place with my brother and see the same people there. Whether its the nurses or the visitors. No matter how different we are, we’re family and kins to the patients. We care and thats why we’re there. They are there for the same purpose as us. To catch a glimpse of our loved ones, make sure they are recovering okay, make sure that their needs are all met by the nurses there. Actually, nurses really need to be appreciated much more. They do so much for us and yet we almost give nothing in return. It’s true that sometimes we get too demanding but I guess thats how much we care about our loved ones. But still, nurses are great! I respect you guys a lot!

Okay. Time to sleep. Before that, I need to yell in the mirror “I’m fabulous!” Thats the way we get MOTIVATED and want to go to school, as quoted by one of my SIM lecturers. Let’s see if that works. HAHA. Have a good night people (:

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Forgot to mention that we’ve already formed our groups! Given the freedom this time round, compared to during JC, I hope we’ve made the right choice. NONONO! I’m sure we can do much better as we’re now all MATURE ADULTS. LOL. Okay. I’m going crazy. OH. Which made me think of something.

One of the modules we’re currently taking now is OB, Organizational Behaviour. It’s actually pretty interesting on the fact that Sociology was one of my choices in my University applications. This is part of it (: So anyways, we had an activity which was to write a word to describe ourselves then ask our neighbours on how they thought of us. I faced Jasmine Tan and described her as “Picky” then turned to SweeHong, labeled her as “crazy”. In the end, they ganged up and said that those words fit me more! In the end, I got stuck with “Picky”, “Crazy” and “Bubbly”. Blehs.

Ah. And I met Jolene, Jeannette, Ms and Sha in the evening. It was such a coincidence that Jolene helped me to get my SGC from YJ today. So she just passed it to me. No hassle. No need to try and get another day to meet up and stuff. So lucky. Oh well.

Hmm.. Oh yeah. And I finished watching Buzzer Beat. Guess I’ll start watching the drama that Hami recommended.

Okay. SLEEP SLEEP. Still need to wake up early tomorrow to prepare myself for lecture at 12pm. Good night people. Love ya.

Sick. Should say, still sick. Oh well. Must be due to KFC and Pizza Hut yesterday

It’s been so long since I’ve stepped into school on a SATURDAY! Ever since Singapore’s education system implemented a 5 day week, going to school on Saturdays have been history. Well well, universities sure are different eh? Anyways, the lesson was a pure annoyance. I had no idea Microsoft Word can be so useful AND frustrating at the same time. Our task was to create a business report with a good letter head. I spent like 1 entire hour trying to figure out Word. Its been a long time, ever since school ended, I haven’t even touched the computer for school purposes anymore. Everyday, it has been either Facebook or work. But somehow… I really miss work days ): And my work friends. Argh.

After lesson, went to meet Weiqin, Jolene, Renzhi and Cheewee straight at AMK hub. I thought I went on a suicide ride because from SIM HQ to AMK, it was super long! And that day was the first day of distance fare, so I thought a great amount would be deducted from my ez-link. In the end, I was wrong! It was only a dollar and fifty cents. No idea how they calculate it, but I’m benefiting from it, so I shall not care!

As usual, everyone was late! Except Cheewee and me. So we hanged around, waiting for the others to come. Bought popcorn and nachos Been so long since I’ve eaten those which shows how long since I’ve watched a movie huh? Imma cavewoman. Yosh. LOL.

Eclipse was pretty good but the same flaw apply from Twilight. Those who didn’t read the books, wouldn’t have understand the movie fully. That point was pretty sad. But I guess it didn’t matter for me since I’ve already read the entire series Oh, there were these bunch of school girls behind Jolene and I. Every time Jacob appeared on screen or says something touching, they would go “awww”. It’s not like we needed extra sound effects for the movie x.x Jolene and I exchanged glances every time they make that noise.

After the show, we walked around aimlessly and then departed for home.

Sunday was a blast. I was pretty shocked to see Shannon and Mingsheng there (Oh and of course Mingle). Didn’t know they were going. We took the “familiar” bus 76 to Jiakiang’s house. When we reached, food was already ready for us. I had to say I was a little disappointed to see KFC x.x Not really into fast food. Oh well. Beggars can’t be choosers. But fast food proved to the the best choice when serving large groups of people. Everyone dug in hungrily.

Some continued eating while the others started playing Wii. I SUCK at car racing games -.- Give up. But I won Mingle :X Nothing to be proud of! LOL. Was accused for bullying KIDS :X Well, either way, I’ll be said!

After that we played Tennis! My favourite game on Wii MingSheng and Jiakiang totally thrashed us x.x They are super pro at it. Jolene arrived soon after with my pink dolphin! Forgot to bring my bottle ><” How forgetful. Then we played Saboteur again. Super fun game. Its the only complicated game that I’ve fallen in love with. Next was Bridge. I give up. My luck was super down and I was trying to blame it on the Feng Shui

Dinner was pizza! So guilty and apologetic. Jiakiang’s mum was so nice to order more food for us because we were hungry ><” THANKS! We spent the evening playing another card game, not a poker one. I have no idea whats the game name at all but it was really worth our time. Seems like Jiakiang can develop his house into a Settler’s Cafe or something. He has Wii, XBOX, so many card and board games. Next time, we should just go over his house or something. No need to go pay money and play some boring games outside when we can just settle comfortably in our classmates house and have fun together (:

Overall, it was really nice to chill with my JC mates, catch up with each other. Been a long time since I’ve seen some of them. Well, we got to meet up again soon guys!

Today was a pretty slacky day. I was supposed to meet up with Kachings but I guess the partying during the weekends weakened my body ): Down with flu and sorethroat. Also had a really bad headache in the morning. Was so pissed off and snapped at every single thing. Rested for the entire afternoon and am now feeling much better (: Dyed my hair as well! Its so dry right now x.x So dry that I feel like just doing 10 hair masks consecutively x.x Anyways, I used Liese’s Marshmallow Brown Bubble Colour dye. The colour’s a little lighter than my previous one. It was quite a fun experience, but totally tiring! Guess I’ll stick to going to salons in the future.

Shall go to sleep now (: Driving in the morning and school in the afternoon tomorrow. Good night people. Sweet dreams (:

Why do people always make me repeat myself? Repeat repeat repeat repeat.. it just continues on as if there’s no ending. It’s such a waste of energy to reiterate things that don’t have a need to. If you really are interested, then you would have paid attention to it at the first place. If I’m at least significant to you, you would have at least separate this SIGNIFICANT space in your BRAIN to remember things that are related to me.

I’m not someone to fill in your “bored” moments. For example, YOU are super bored. YOU open your messenger and realized that I’m the only one online. Hence YOU had no choice but to double click on my nick and start to ENTERTAIN YOURSELF. So, YOU start to get the conversation rolling by asking questions that YOU already have the answer to.

To say the truth, I can actually respond in two ways. First, get angry and start giving you a piece of my mind. Second, play along. The difference? The latter is actually the worse off one because I have no intention to tell you how pathetic you are to have just exposed yourself to me on how much you do not even care about me as a friend. The first category people have at least some hope somewhere, here and there.

A waste of both our precious time. Perhaps not yours, since you were bored from the beginning. But it tells me a lot really, about you; how you think of me; and our totally redundant relationship. Yes. That’s how it is. I don’t care if you just laugh and shrug it off because I’ve already seen your true colours, inside out.