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I thought I could sleep early tonight before I received a text from ShunYu. Darn. There’s maths test tomorrow. What’s wrong with this week ! There are so many tests ! Gosh. I’m going to die from it already. Computing was on monday, today was economics, tomorrow would be having maths and gp then thursday would be physics. Spare me on Friday please. 

Been really worried for economics test the entire day today. Couldn’t focus during lessons at all. My entire mind was dedicated to it. And guess how I think I fared during the test ? The first word that came out of my mind when I skimmed through the questions was “Shit” Not a good way to start the test at all huh . I tried my best this time . If Ms Kwok want to scold me or whatever, let it be man. I studied beforehand and yesterday too. Even today morning. I studied like crazy but I still blanked out a little during test time. It’s so difficult to remain calm. I keep telling myself that it would be okay. Guess the only paper I can calmly do is gp. Crap.

Well well, I’m too tired to study for maths test tomorrow. Shall do whatever I can during break. Really am too tired. Need to hit the hay already or I would fall asleep on the desk which is bad for my back. And my back is already in a bad situation. It aches really badly. Old ? I should see the doctor soon really. I wonder what’s happening. Mum says that it’s because of my cold and I think so too but I’m not sure about it. If the problem persists, I’ll do something then.

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A wish is a promise one makes with oneself.

I’ve made a wish and I’m going to make sure it comes true. 

Gona go study. No computer tonight (:

My predicament right now cannot be described as bad because it’s much worse than that. Except I’m unable to crack my brain to find a suitable vocabulary word because it’s going to crash anytime soon. I have been doing Physics since 6pm and I’m still at it, all thanks to those tough nuclear physics questions. To make it worse, I have no idea what the lecturer has been rambling about for the past few lectures. Pathetic ain’t I ?

Well, but it’s all my fault for not doing it before. Been slacking as usual. Watching videos, anime and everything. So yeah. I deserve it. Blame no one except myself.

I’ve studied half of what is tested for economics test on Tuesday. Surprisingly, I did not even touch my computing notes and tomorrow is the test. I think I’m going to flunk it, oh no. Not think, but am going to. What can I do again except to blame myself. Such a procrastinator ain’t I ? To add on, there’s Physics test on Thursday.

Because of all the overwhelming tests, I’m not going to attend the hiphop performance on Wednesday ): Quite sad actually. Well, well. What can I do ? And I can already predict the outcomes of all my tests besides not going for the concert. 

Okay. Time to get back to work. Oh. And something that I’m really happy with over the weekend. I had 2 Ben and Jerry tubs of icecream ! Oh wait don’t you there think about this. It’s small tubs okay. SMALL. I had chocolate fudge brownie and cookie dough ! YUMMY !

I sprained my ankle. Didn’t even realised it till today, felt that it hurts a little when I walk. So in order to protect it, I decided to allocate more pressure on my left leg. So now, I’m officially lame -_- Well well, I don’t want it to heal slowly like the previous time, so I’ve got to be more careful and take more care of it (:

Gotten the common cold again. Darn. I wonder how many days out of an entire year am I healthy and well. I can move about, I can do PE, I’m already living with it. But that’s not good right. I need to learn how to take care of myself. And it’s really getting on my nerves somehow. Can’t really concentrate during lessons and I feel so much more exhausted as the time passes. Darn.

Lessons are getting worse. I just don’t understand any lesson do I ? Or should I say, I never had. Physics was as usual. I really suck in it. No wonder everyone was shocked that I took Physics for A levels. It was never my best subject nor the average one. It has always been in the red right from the start. But so, I thought that it was interesting and decided to give it another try. But god forbid, it doesn’t make a difference at all. And the naive me even thought that my physics was getting better when I got back my block test results. Now, I’m back to square one.

I guess its the same. History is repeating itself. The same old question of why my friends around are so much better academically wise. Everyone just loves to compare and yeah, it sucks to always be the last one. Even though I try hard to resist that fact, it gets really tiring everytime.

I’ve seen and realized many people’s talents yet I’ve not discovered mine. Am I losing my patience ? Yes. I’m getting so disappointed with myself lately. And it seems that “Angels and Demons” are already out today. Is it time to set my One-day-alone plan already ? Maybe it is, I should sort out my thoughts soon and end all of this.